what do you know..

what do you know about me?
Did you know I should have a 24 year old son/daughter? They would have turned 24 in August, I lost them after Ash Wednesday (see below)
Should have a 5 year old too but thanks to my x husband I do not
Did you know I had a lump removed from my right breast when I was 17? Size of a golf ball, it wasn't cancerous but afterwards I ended up in hospital again with a skin rash would you believe caused by the bandages ..I'm allergic to a adhesive bandage named Leukoplast.
Did you know I rolled my mothers car when I was 18 ? Wore a neck brace for six weeks and have had back and neck problems ever since, its the cause of my headaches.
Did you know I'm an Ash Wednesday survivor? The fire completely surrounded us, we drove through flames and smoke that day, our house was saved only because it was surrounded on two sides by roads and the other two sides by orchards with the sprinklers going

When I was 4 I fell asleep at church youth group I'd gone with my brother and sister (teenagers at the time) and my cousin who is one month older than me I was supposed to go home with my cousin but I fell asleep instead. I woke up at the door of my parents house after being driven home by the priest, I knew youth group hadn't finished because of the time, I could tell because of the TV and what was showing on it.
I also remember arguing with my parents as they said that youth group had finished and that's why the priest brought me home. I was four years old and should have been brought home by my aunt with my cousin (my brother and sister where teenagers they got to stay longer) but I didn't I was brought home by the priest.
I can remember the back seat of the car, the vinyl was cold. I can remember seeing myself at the door next to the priest like I was looking out of the house, I dream it, re live it go through everything have done since I was four years old.
I haven't ever fallen asleep like that since, I can only sleep if I'm wrapped up and feel safe I'm always last to go to bed I find it difficult go to sleep if someone else is awake
This particular thing has been following me around since I was four years old and you wonder why I startle so easily.

These particular things I have never blogged about before, these are things that you didn't know and now you do

Enneagram

What do you say to this? True or not?

My score on The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test:

5 - the Observer

I chose BZ - My Enneagram type is FIVE (aka "The Thinker").

"I need to understand the world"

Observers have a need for knowledge and are introverted, curious, analytical,
and insightful.

How to Get Along with Me
Be independent, not clingy.
Speak in a straightforward and brief manner.
I need time alone to process my feelings and thoughts.
Remember that If I seem aloof, distant, or arrogant, it may be that
I am feeling uncomfortable.
Make me feel welcome, but not too intensely, or I might doubt your
sincerity.
If I become irritated when I have to repeat things, it may be because
it was such an effort to get my thoughts out in the first place.
don't come on like a bulldozer.
Help me to avoid my pet peeves: big parties, other people's loud music,
overdone emotions, and intrusions on my privacy.


What I Like About Being a FIVE
standing back and viewing life objectively
coming to a thorough understanding; perceiving causes and effects
my sense of integrity: doing what I think is right and not being influenced by social pressure
not being caught up in material possessions and status
being calm in a crisis


What's Hard About Being a FIVE
being slow to put my knowledge and insights out in the world
feeling bad when I act defensive or like a know-it-all
being pressured to be with people when I don't want to be
watching others with better social skills, but less intelligence or
technical skill, do better professionally


FIVEs as Children Often

spend a lot of time alone reading, making collections, and so on
have a few special friends rather than many
are very bright and curious and do well in school
have independent minds and often question their parents and teachers
watch events from a detached point of view, gathering information
assume a poker face in order not to look afraid
are sensitive; avoid interpersonal conflict
feel intruded upon and controlled and/or ignored and neglected


FIVEs as Parents

are often kind, perceptive, and devoted
are sometimes authoritarian and demanding
may expect more intellectual achievement than is developmentally appropriate
may be intolerant of their children expressing strong emotions

The Enneagram Made Easy
Discover the 9 Types of People

Link: The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test

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Every day I come across as this happy person and I'm not, "not happy Janet" not happy at all
Just plain old sad most of the time
I get so happy when someone does talk to me it lifts me you know I'm not a reacher not an attention seeker I'm not the kind of person who as soon as your name lights up on IM I'll message you, my IM is invisible all the time has to be it won't stay online stupid thing but I'm on you know I see peeps go on and off see them online but I don't message them don't know why I don't but I just don't
Its like I don't want to get close to anyone but I do need the contact sometimes, don't like being left out but its so scary to get close that I wont

The way I am

This is the way that I am if you don’t like it, say so to my face

I will do the same for you

I will tell you straight up if you are wrong

I will tell you straight out what I think of you

What I feel what I’m thinking

I will tell you

I’m not a yapper my face constantly flapping saying nothing

When I say something I’ve thought about it before hand

I don’t expect everyone to like me

If you can get over my ways and sometimes I come across as being bitchy

Maybe sometimes downright nasty

If you can get over that you will find I am a really nice person

Ask the few who do know me, really know me

They will tell you I go out of my way to help anyone who needs it

The truthful honest people who really do need help I will help them

But not the ones who don’t need help who only need attention that’s not what I do

There are others who can do that not me

That’s not what I do

You don’t like me, that’s fine but it’s also too bad as I won’t be helping you out anytime soon when and if you need help

This is me I don’t want to be your bestest buddy

I’ll make you smile maybe laugh, help you when and if you need it

I won’t ask you for anything in return.
And don’t expect it either

Don’t care if you totally ignore me had that all my life its nothing to me

Don’t care if you don’t like me

I’m myself by myself that’s just me

360 Writers Intro Challenge

Y!360 Writers
Union

Introduction challenge.

I’ve been Missy or Mistress for a long time it’s my screen name, didn’t pick it, it well kinda just became, don’t use my real name either even though some know my first name no body believes my last name anyway. I don’t use Mistress any more because of add requests from people into BDSM and we can’t have that can we

Why did I start too blog
because I love too write, get my thoughts down and then well I
forget about them till later and basically say either “you twit what you write
that for” or “where did that come from”

Do I have a theme, nope haven’t got around too photo shopping one yet … oh that theme. No I don’t have a theme I just write whatever comes too mind, looking back on my old posts I think my mind went on holidays a few times. That’s why I love challenges gives the old brain a bit of a poke wake it up a little

There’s 3 working computers here, networked, set it up myself so I can go type in the dining room if I want but most times if I want peace I just get up at 6am. One day I’ll get one of those fancy phones the ones with keyboards and then I can go sit in the fairytary’ and write

Work yeah well Blogging is a full time job for me I run 4 pages here on 360º one on My

Space and just started another on Blogger just for short stories and poems, bad
poems most of them. My web page has the really old
stuff don’t look at that it’s shocking

I’m married too the computer,
no not really I live with this big cuddly bear of a man, he drops hair
everywhere eats things he’s not meant too, no hang on that’s the dog, the
man he’s good most of the time.

At the moment I have 1 dog, 3 birds (one swears we won’t go into that one) and the large man he’s a child isn’t he? No just acts like it sometimes, my actual kids live in South Australia with their dad, one of each, one is 17 in Feb the other will be 20 in Nov … oh help that means I’m older than I thought

Note: ‘fairytary’ is my daughters (3 year old) word for cemetery, the local cemetery is at the back of our place, we have great neighbors very, very quiet

When I got a quickie comment from the
360º Writers Union the other day honestly I thought I was in trouble for being a
scab (non-union labour) or hadn’t paid my dues or something, it would have
scared the pants off me had I been wearing any … behave I was in my PJ’s well it
was something like 3am what do you expect. Anyway apart from the first reaction
(fear) I felt honored .. Me a writer? Ok if you say so I mean
it’s a union and everything so it can’t be wrong

Whoops forgot the date of the original post ..my bad smack me one

My Picture

Has anyone noticed anything about my picture on here?
It comes up so small in comments thats its a bit hard to see but take a look at my Blogger profile, pretty neat huh.

Just a very simple animation I made it only has 5 frames doesn't move much but it does move
I like it because it isn't really flashy and annoying and if I hadn't of told you, you really wouldn't have noticed the eyes where moving
I love doing animations I've been fasinated with them for years now I've got a few programmes up my sleeve and I can play with them a bit more now I can whip one up in about 1/2 an hour some take more it all depends on how much fiddling around has to be done
Did one for K the other day took me all of 15 minutes, it took longer to get it to her than it took to do it
Wait right there I'll do one


As per usual it took me longer to get it on here than it did to make it
Oh and Josie I borrowed your flower hope you don't mind

Just my thoughts

I was asked if I would go back to 360 and seriously looking around tonight, if I did my list would go down to maybe 20 or so I've found out who my real friends are this last few days so if you read this from 360 and you find yourself with a big green plus sign it's because I've realized who is just a list collector who cares and who doesn't and I know that the ones who don't care, don't read won't even notice if I remove them
There will be a few who stay those who are on my MySpace list will stay those who bothered clicking on a link and can get out of the 360 loop for 2 minutes those will stay. Those who really care will stay

See I've had a hell of a time with some people who say they are my bestest friend but treat me as if I don't exist they say they don't have time for me yet have time for others those will go bye bye's as honestly I don't have time for them any more
I got sick of the constant "I'm better than anyone" nonsense from a few people
Got sick of the snarky QC's
Sick of not hardly knowing who to talk to and who to trust
Who I was sopposed to be talking to and who I wasn't
Sick of people treating others like crap when they are sopposed to be friends and I ain't talking about me here I see how people interact and some of it is nasty

I will be opening my page back up but it won't be the same

Message to a friend

I just sent this message to someone who asked me why I didn't come on 360 anymore and decided that to post it would be a better idea that way its open, well to the people who read this anyway
Read previous posts here and you will realize that I am just way too busy/constantly interupted to be lurking anywhere

Message body :
I've had a look around today on 360, had to go on BA anyway and there is something missing from the whole thing I had to grab Eddo's link for the BA web site post (bloggers on blogging) and it took me AGES to find him, had to check my old mail to find his new page he's shut down too.
Something about trolls ..I think.. don't know really wasn't looking at posts
I see blasts and thats about it (need the 360 home page to check simple urls for BA memberships) I won't shut down BA but I'm only on it for 1/2 hour tops each day, check mail and comments thats it.
Its only been a week but I'm staying away if I'm not there I can't be implicated in anything
I havemy MySpace that I've shut down to friends only and my views went down from 150 in a week to 35, I have Blogger that you don't need to be a member of to comment on **hint hint** that is open, the link to my blogger profile is on my 360 blast (page views climbing LoL) and my Imeem
I'm just staying away from the whole thing I used to love 360 but really its gone so far down hill far too much backbiting and bitching going on,who's friends with who, who's fighting, who's doing that,this, whatever its impossible
The only thing I can do is just not bother with it any more
The same thing happened in the origional chat room I used to go in (the one I wrote the story on) there is only one person from there I am in contact with now the rest can go F themselves, there are more on 360 that I am closer too but sheet it's going the same way

Who am I?

A blog topic brought to you by Jeepers
My name is Missy A, subject to change but most times Missy A … A for Anything? No A for Angel only the angel part attracts men of middle eastern origin for some reason so seeing as I don’t need an oil rich guy from AOE I try not to use the Angel part
My real name is Fran or Frances and no I’m not telling my married last name or my maiden name either
My home is in Australia, lived here for 35 years yet I can’t get an Australian passport or vote because I wasn’t born after 20 August 1986 or turned 18 before 1984 (“missed it by that much” –Maxwell Smart) I turned 18 on July 4th ‘85
I can and do make animations and Photoshop up pictures for people
I can do PC help and I have the paperwork to prove it, even though I didn’t touch a computer till I was in my 30’s as all the computers I’d come in contact with before that where cumbersome huge things that seemed to do nothing, I now have a certificate in IT.
I can now rip the guts out of a computer and put it all back together and do spreadsheets and databases and make little programmes.
I can’t do math at all, have to get out the calculator or use my fingers to add 2 and 2 together
I have 2 children one boy (19) one girl (17) they both live with their father in South Australia over 1000 ks away
I’ve done dog training classes with my little dog Linda and won prizes in dog obedience, well ok the dog won the prizes but I did the training I even trained the cat to sit and stay and speak … did you know cats can speak? They can they can say meeeeet and meeeeout.
I’ve sold Avon, worked picking grapes and worked as volunteer at a Community Center where I received a recognition award from the Governor of South Australia in the field of women’s help groups and ran the Op Shop or 2nd hand shop
I learned to weld and do woodwork at school and to drive a tractor, I can’t ride a motorbike but I can ride a horse and I can ice skate and roller blade just don’t ask me to roller-skate I fall over
It says bi on my MySpace not because I’m bipolar but because I am bi, funny thing is it’s always guys who try and chat me up, sorry fellas (no Word spell checker not fleas, fellas) but really you have no chance.
I wrote and ran the local newsletter for the town I lived in for 3 years, totally by myself I wrote articles, printed and collated, folded and collected money for donations and advertising and of course placed piles of the newsletter in shops and businesses every month and didn’t get paid a single cent.
I love to cook but hate washing dishes
My plants grow easily I can grow things just by looking at them
Most times I have 4 web pages open, one on 360° one for MySpace, another on Blogger/Google and one on another Forum site, sometimes even Imeem or Facebook but I don’t like Facebook that much
Sometimes I write bad poetry
Sometimes I find things difficult to remember, I need a re-caller, a mechanism to help me remember or I’ll just walk off into the kitchen and remember by the time I’ve come back.
So don’t ask me who wrote that song or starred in what movie because even though I’ve heard it or watched it I just can’t remember.
My eyes are green; my hair is long and streaked with grey
And you can call me Missy A
(I told you I wrote bad poetry)